"Mind-boggling it is."
This statement marks a big space, perhaps in my heart and in my mind. Five years ago, I was just a neophyte trying my luck here in Manila, pushing myself to pursue a noble course that would eventually lead me to a bright future. Five years ago, I was a futile girl wanting to enjoy what's there and believing into the "come what may" line of thinking. Five years ago, I was a girl with no plans but only mandatory paths I should be taking. Five years ago, I did not care of anything big.
That was five years ago.
Five years have passed if I may compute, and now, I stress my mind with the unbelievable, peculiar, and present big choices which I didn't think of before, not even a single tad of it. These good and big choices started to arise yet I entertain the uncertainties. "Shall I pursue Medicine?" That question keeps on twisting inside my head, wanting for an answer, waiting for a damn good response. But how did that question arrive in my hippocampus which eventually stayed in my semantic system recurring all over in my brain processor in the first place? It all started when I got into a pre-med course at UST. Since we are a family of lawyers, having 6 prosecutors, they wanted something different, unique, and as equally respectable profession as being a lawyer. Being the youngest in the family, I am the sole sacrificial lamb who is able to take part in this dream, to be different and become a doctor.
"I would never want to become a doctor!" I always say to my parents and siblings. Shouting this outright statement with all my heart and my mind was as easy as solving one plus one. Apparently, THAT WAS BEFORE. To this day, everything significantly changed. If before I was 100% sure that I never wanted to become a doctor, my percentage digits spectacularly deteriorated into half. Honestly, I didn't know the reason why it happened but I'm quite sure about 2 things: (1) I wanted to take a higher lifelong dream and (2) I wanted to learn some more to help those in need. But the dilemma is that I am one of the very first batch of UST Speech & Language Pathology (SLP) profession which is highly expected to be rendering and catering services to special children in ten months time. SLP is in direly needed not only abroad but also in the Philippines because the SLP population is limited as compared to the ratio of the potential patients. To sum up this meticulous hopes the profession implies, they are expecting us to be committed, competent, and compassionate Speech Language Pathologist ready to embrace and practice efficiently the profession in the real world.
Now the painstakingly part of deciding which is which heats up. Should I pursue the former or stick with the latter? Should I study some more for the benefit of the general or start helping people with special needs? It's too early to decide now and I believe that I am still confused with all these since it only began perplexing my system lately. Ergo, I will just let it hang inside my brain and hopefully when I graduate, which is nearly approaching, I would have a more concrete answer to those haunting queries.
I might pursue Medicine.
I might.
I will still be the the first Ilocana Thomasian Speech and Language Pathologist.
I will be.
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-F
"How was your day?"
My day went just well today. We had class in the morning where our Internship Supervisor distributed papers for internship then I just stayed home in the afternoon. The highlight of my Saturday would be at this point in time where I get to pack my things, prepare my clothes, and finally go home to my hometown, Ilocos. Yes, I'm only two months away since my last stay there but I already missed my family, my friends, my "summer vacay" and everything about home. So as I escape the Metro for two days, I am going to enjoy this short opportunity to bond and catch up with the people I have had lacked time of. And with this opportunity, I shall embark new memories I can treasure for the rest of my life. They say time is gold and I believe it. Thus, the appeal of making every memory counts.
See you, Ilocos!
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-F.
Hey guys! I'm already on my fifth year in college (my last year hopefully wihoo!) which means I am on my internship year. I'm on my second rotation now and I am currently "rendering" speech and language services at the Missionaries of Charity (MOC) in Tayuman. So here's my daily schedule, I stay at MOC in the morning (8AM-12N) then spend the rest of the afternoon (1-5PM) inside the Health Sciences Library in UST. Awhile ago, I was so lazy to do my paper works so I decided to watch movies while enjoying the cold temperature instead. I watched two movies entitled: 10 Things I Hate About You and It's a Boy Girl Thing. For this certain blog entry, I wanna focus on my feels about the former. I loved how the movie was perfectly made to meet my high hopes and expectations. It is one of the must-watch movies of all time, really. Regardless of the "years ago" that it was made, the plot and the characters still got me hooked. Other than that, it also talked about the life lessons every teenager should nail in their minds (yes I get it, not a teenager anymore! lol but I still learned a lot though) but what what really struck me was the humorous, playful, and sweet lines which made me laugh and felt "kilig much" (I swear I got butterflies in my stomach).
Here's the best part for me:
"I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."
Sweet right? Well, I'm not going to spoil the other lines and the whole story itself. Go ahead! Search it in Torrent, look for a good and clear copy, download and watch it! It is really a must watch flick! :>
Some sweet photos I searched through Google:
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-F.
"Chew your Judge."
We have the privilege to say whatever we want to say, that is our right. But the breakdown is, in several instances, do we filter what ought to be said or not? Do we fish what's true from false statements? We are given the ability to judge anything we can, be it your best friend's outfit, your mom's dinner recipe, or even your boyfriend's new car. It is our moral judgment that comes in play. However, with this capability to judge things around us, we often misjudge others. More so, it manifests an erroneous "misuse" (yes double negative) of our moral judgment ability.
What I don't understand about other people is that why would they want a piece of you (like they get to know you and they become a part of you as "legit" friends) and then the next thing you know, they are out there judging you wholeheartedly? Regardless of what you are going to feel, regardless of what harm and/or damage it might cause you, they would still embrace the idea of doing so. Then you'll end up misinterpreted, mistreated and misunderstood by others. What's even worse is they're smashing stains and spreading poison on your name which will surely be epidemic.
Harsh right? Well, this thought all boils down to a realization that nowadays, you simply cannot draw the lines as to when and who to trust. Furthermore, they would always want a piece of your shit and a little bit of your flaws then off they go mixing and adding fire to your personality ready for everyone's taste buds for the verdict! One phoning question would also be, is it really the fault of the "victim" for having such personality and qualities? And the one and only answer would be NO. It is definitely not wrong to show yourself. It is their lost that they did not give theirselves a chance to get to know you instead of judging you instantly.
I say, chew your bubble gum well and be prepared in case you might need to swallow it. That's a JUDGE bubble gum, remember? Keep judging, fellas!
End.xoxo
-F.
I could not help but sing this song all the time. Such a sweet and good song!
End.xoxo
-F.
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-F.
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